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My new comm. [16 Apr 2005|08:46pm]
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It's my comm guys, go join it.

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Show me how to live [25 Oct 2004|05:51pm]
[ mood | lazy ]

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JUst wanted to post this again. >.

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I'm young and I'm hopeless, I'm lost and I know this [24 Sep 2004|09:45pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

Hey

I studied 12 fucking hours of chemistry. I have to fucking do it right tomorrow, or I'll die in frustration. Oh well, I don't think I'll do it VERY good, cuz I have no brain for chemistry, but at least I can get a good grade, right? I mean 12 HOURS!! I could've gone insane. Oh well, I still have lots to work for school yet. I still have a whole week of tests. >.<

I don't know if I still wanna cut my hair. I was thinking and I dunno, it might not look good cuz I have curls and whatever. I dunno, I wanted to chop it out because of summer, I have too much hair for Brazils summer. hah that's fucked. But its true I dunno. My cousin (god she's annoying.) decided to take her curls and she looks like Andre 3000 or Lenny Kravitz whatever you prefer. lmfao its amusing. I love making fun of that hair. yucki its so ugly. Oh well, I don't wanna take my curls off, I like them. But I dunno, I wanted a fringe or whatever.

Do I have the sex photos? lmfao. I dunno, you guys are so crazy. hahah Thanx Lara, Jenn and Krissy for telling me that. I try to amuse you.

3 piccies.Collapse )

bye bye see ya in two days!

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Am I allowed to find myself? [23 Sep 2004|06:43pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

Hello

I was just thinking here. Do I look like I know myself for you? I'm so confused, I mean... I don't know what I want. I mean, I know what I want for the future, for sure. But do I know what I want for the present? I mean, counting how my life is now, I have no meanings, I mean... I don't really have a life. All I do is study (WHEN I study), sleep, eat and rp. That's it. That's all I do. It fucking annoys me, I hate routine. Nothing amuses me THAT much anymore, I mean, rp does and talking to my friends too. But something's missing. I know what's missing. Gah, my biggest problem. Love. bleh I'll quit it, no one reads the shit I write here anyway.

So yeah, in two months I get to see Offspring! Wooo! Finally something good! I never saw them live! wooo I'm excited!

Oh well, I dunno. I'm annoyed, I have tow exams tomorrow and my brain is frying. History and drawing, don't ask me. ¬¬''

Oh God Hold On is on, its been ages since I saw it for the first time, I cried my little heart out. Dude, I'm gonna cry again. *pauses writing* Alright, yeah I cried. There's no way to describe what that song means to me. I remember when I was on the edge of my depression I cut so fucking deep, I still have the scar on my right arm, what made me stop cutting to not reach the wrist was this song. I dunno, it definitely means the world to me. I fear getting back on what I was before. I fear on falling on that razorblade again. I swaer I fight against it, I swear but sometimes I just have to go out so I can't see that blade staring at me. *shrugs* no, I'm not crazy. Oh well, more bullshit that no one reads. bleh.

If I had a twin sister or brother would I feel more complete?Collapse )

Bye

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Chop chop [20 Sep 2004|09:03pm]
[ mood | frustrated ]

Hello

God, today sucked major monkey balls. I dunno, the day sucked. I had this chemistry test I fucking sucked at it. It had gym and I skipped the class. Best friend went home earlier cuz she was feeling sick so I was all alone. Diogo and I talked like... one phrase. It was frustrating indeed. It makes me sick.

Oh well, I'm kinda bored now. So yeah...

Oohhh chek it out, I wanna cut my hair and I was thinking about this, tell me what you think:

Ooohh la la a cutCollapse )

Oh well, tell me what you think. See ya

<3 Josie

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Stole this from Ayla. Will be posting the next top 10 on sunday [21 Aug 2004|02:12am]
[ mood | sleepy ]

What do people really think of you? Try this.

"If you and I were alone in a room right now, what would we be doing?"

Now post this in YOUR LJ, and see what people wanna do with you.

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WOOOOOO! [16 Aug 2004|08:00pm]
[ mood | hyper ]

TO JENNCollapse )

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That boy who stood by the sea [07 Aug 2004|06:32pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

JOIN abusdaffection NOW!

Well, hello people! Lets see, its 6pm, I woke up 3, hahah wow, look how amusing my life is. haha

Anyways... I'm sleepy and I'm just here to post pictures. So yeah have fun.

blah blah blah JOIN ABUSED AFFECTIONS!Collapse )

EDIT: JENN! You're making me be addicted to Tim!! hahaha LUV YA!

Well, see ya.

<3 Jo

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[03 Aug 2004|09:01pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

Name: Dear Benjamin
Author: Me!
Fandom: Good Charlotte/Mest
Pairing: Benji/Tony
Rating: R for sex scene
Summary: "Our lips reached breaking the loneliness of my tongue, slow motions being ripped by your thirsty tongue. Flesh being sprinkled by warm drops of saliva."
Dedication: To mestpunk182 cuz I luv her muchly and to iluv_slash, cuz she's the greatest and she beta'ed this!

Click here!!!Collapse )

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Be Strong When Things Fall Apart [21 Jul 2004|12:31am]
[ mood | exanimate ]

Hya

So I guess I should update, since I haven't for 2 days. lol

ok, lemme see. So, I had this, HOT thing online two days ago. *ahem* I don't know if I can name her, becuz SHE DOESN'T WRITE MY NAME ON HER JOURNAL! *slaps her ass* So I wont write her too. So, we had this hot hot thing by msn. That was far from the best convo I've ever had. Truly. That was awesome. I can't wait for having it again. But I guess she doesnt want to talk to me, cuz she just left me here, all by myself drowning in boredom. DAMN YOU!

Whatever. Today is Peter bday! *sings bday songie* and tomorrow it's Lines so we're going out tomorrow and I'll have finally piccies to post it again. Some of my cherriness. lol

mmm lemme see, right now, I'm bored, I'm hungry, and I want her. But she's not here for me. So, what can I do? I think I might go grab some gay porns. I dunno, have nothing to do. I'm here rp'ng. Joely *me* is dating Brody, lol it's cute. <3

Well, I think I might be going now. I'm bored and I'm making you get bored.

<3 Jo

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[21 Jul 2004|12:26am]
[ mood | bored ]

Type your name with your:

Normal: Josie

nose: uo9sie

elbow: jjooszie

tongue: josie

chin: njxsjidf

feet: jmkswu3

eyes closed and one finger: josie

back of hand: iu000000oeioe

palm: hjiosuier

wrist: jkopsdioer


lol that was funny... stole this from shock93

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New GC song [07 Jul 2004|09:37pm]
[ mood | but hyper ]

Hya!

I'm so hyper now cuz I'm fucking listening to the new GC song. I don't how is it called yet, but you can all download it here www.maddentwins.net It's an amazing song. And woot, look at the lyrics. Have you ever seen anything more twincest than that?

All these dreams and all these plans
I filled them all with these two hands
Everything..realised My Dreams
This citylife died down (?)
And they blind me sometimes but trough it all
I was lost but I found my way

Tell me what you want and I will give you anything
Tell me what you need and I'll go get it
I'll give up all these dreams to have you In my heart right now
I'll give up everything and If I get it


..Lonely Without you

All my life been waiting/wishing
Cant reach out..(?)

I will lift you up and show you this world over me
And all these dreams and all these plans and what I think and what I..
I feel
Look love what you do to me

Tell me what you want and I will give you anything
Tell me what you need and I'll go get it
I'll give up all these dreams to have you in my heart right now
I'll give up everything and If i get it

..without you

All my life I've been waiting/wishing
Cant reach out..

Years go by and nothings slowing down the time
Years go by and..

..lonely without you

Anything..

All my life been waiting/wishing..

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*tear* Please read this. [06 Jul 2004|11:00pm]
[ mood | emo ]

This is something that my love Jenn sent to me. Please read it.


When I was a freshman in high school, I saw a kid from my class was walking home from school. His name was Kyle. It looked like he was carrying all of his books. I thought to myself, "Why would anyone bring home all his books on a Friday? He must really be a nerd."

I had quite a weekend planned (parties and a football game with my friends tomorrow afternoon), so I shrugged my shoulders and went on.

As I was walking, I saw a bunch of kids running toward him. They ran at him, knocking all his books out of his arms and tripping him so he landed in the 20 dirt. His glasses went flying, and I saw them land in the grass about ten feet from him. He looked up and I saw this terrible sadness in his eyes.

My heart went out to him. So, I jogged over to him and as he crawled around looking for his glasses, and I saw a tear in his eye. As I handed him his glasses, I said, "Those guys are jerks. They really should get lives." He looked at me and said, "Hey thanks!" There was a big smile on his face. It was one of those smiles that showed real gratitude.

I helped him pick up his books, and asked him where he lived. As it turned out, he lived near me, so I asked him why I had never seen him before. He said he had gone to private school before now.

I would have never hung out with a private school kid before. We talked all the way home, and I carried some of his books. He turned out to be a pretty cool kid. I asked him if he wanted to play a little football with my friends. He said yes. We hung out all weekend and the more I got to know Kyle, the more I liked him, and my friends thought the same of him.

Monday morning came, and there was Kyle with the huge stack of books again. I stopped him and said,
"Boy, you are gonna really build some serious muscles with this pile of books everyday!" He just laughed and handed me half the books.

Over the next four years, Kyle and I became best friends. When we were seniors, we began to think
about college. Kyle decided on Georgetown, and I was going to Duke. I knew that we would always be
friends, that the miles would never be a problem. He was going to be a doctor, and I was going for business on a football scholarship.

Kyle was valedictorian of our class. I teased him all the time about being a nerd. He had to prepare a speech for graduation.

I was so glad it wasn't me having to get up there and speak. Graduation day, I saw Kyle. He looked great. He was one of those guys that really found himself during high school. He filled out and actually looked good in glasses. He had more dates than I had and all the girls loved him. Boy, sometimes I was jealous.

Today was one of those days. I could see that he was nervous about his speech. So, I smacked him on the back and said, "Hey, big guy, you'll be great!" He looked at me with one of those looks (the really grateful one) and smiled. "Thanks," he said.

As he started his speech, he cleared his throat, and
began. "Graduation is a time to thank those who helped you make it through those tough years. Your parents, your teachers, your siblings, maybe a coach...but mostly your friends. I am here to tell all of you that being a friend to someone is the best gift you can give them. I am going to tell you a story."

I just looked at my friend with disbelief as he told the story of the first day we met. He had planned to kill himself over the weekend. He talked of how he had cleaned out his locker so his Mom wouldn't have to do it later and was carrying his stuff home. He looked hard at me and gave me a little smile.

"Thankfully, I was saved. My friend saved me from doing the unspeakable."

I heard the gasp go through the crowd as this handsome, popular boy told us all about his weakest moment. I saw his Mom and dad looking at me and smiling that same grateful smile. Not until that moment did I realize it's depth.

Never underestimate the power of your actions. With one small gesture you can change a person's life. For better or for worse.


To all my friends, you're really, really important to me. Every single word you say is kept right inside of my heart, every single one has a private space inside of it. I love you all.

<3 Jo

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Bleh [04 Jul 2004|11:08pm]
[ mood | and sleepy ]

Hya

First, I'm so glad Jenn is back! I can't believe how fucking much I missed her. Shit. >.< Whatever I'll just wish to find her on now.

SHE IS ON NOW! *bounces* MY GOD! lol ok, that was weird.

Well, I went with my lovely friends to watch Spider Man 2 friday. Fuck, you all should see it, it's awesome. AWESOME. Tobey Maguire is an amazing actor, he just acts so perfectly. I luv him!

Ahhh I'm so fucking screwed cuz tomorrow I have this math test, and I haven't study at all, so I'm almost sure that I'll suck at it. But whatever, I can catch it later, cuz here school ends on the end of the year. >.< weird, right?

Bleh, whatever. I'm so hyper cuz Jenn is on and I'm gonna see Toni in 1 week! I can't wait!! It will be awesome.

Yesterday I crushed on Renatas and we saw White Snow, but the horror one, not the Disney version. So we slept there, me, Lulu, Luiza, Renata and Flavia (brazilian names, lol). Oh and yeees we ate brownie!! mmm *licks lips*

I guess that's it for the day... I filled this thing and there's a picc from my lovey...

my heart stops when I hear your nameCollapse )

Jenn just told me she'll come here in 1 year anda half, I can't believe I'll have to wait this long. But it will worth it. Ahhh it will, cuz I'll have 18 and we can go fuck around and get drunk. And she will take me with her back to Canada. Fuck yes. Can't wait.

That's it, guys.

Luv y'all! Jenn I need a picture of you.

<3
Jo

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[02 Jul 2004|10:20pm]
[ mood | tired ]

Loved this. <3


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you will sound like: matchbook romance
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Dude... [01 Jul 2004|01:33pm]
[ mood | horny ]

Hya

I've been reading, and did you know that Benji broke his leg? awww *pouts* poor baby, I don't know how, but I know he did.

And I've been thinking here... in one interview, Tony said he was bi (what was not a surprise to me) and that he hoped that Benji was too. Then, there are some rumors that they made out, in front of ppl! *drools* Well, I do think Benji is bi, cuz, come on, you can see it, it's like written on his forehead! lol *giggles* Imagine Tony coming "Benji, would please make out with me??" and Beji goes: "No dude!" and then Tony grabs him and throws him on acouch and... *dirty dirty thoughts* shit, I think my neurones are water now. I must... die. Dude, they should marry!

I must go now, or my brain you fully melt.
First...

Tell me what you've gotCollapse )

Fuck.
Toni, I molish you!

<3

JOIN blinkish_photos and make me happy!

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HEY! [29 Jun 2004|10:21pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

I MADE A COMM!!! Please guys, join it!! It's to share Blink 182 photos!! <3333

blinkish_photos
JOIN IT!

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My Best Friend is obscenexxtears
Our 34 common interests are: bam margera, benji madden, billy martin, blink 182, box car racer, brand new, chris wilson, coldplay, drums, eyeliner, fall out boy, fire, gob, good charlotte, green day, jackass, jeremiah rangel, joel madden, linkin park, matchbook romance, matt lovato, mest, new found glory, paul thomas, silverchair, slash, slipknot, sum 41, the all-american rejects, the offspring, the transplants, the used, tony lovato, twincest
Who is your best friend?
Username:
Created by macoto


I butt you! <3333333
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We saw a boy... [29 Jun 2004|08:52pm]
[ mood | sick ]

Hya

mmm lemme see the news... today one of the worst weeks from the year began. Tests week. Today I had History and Portuguese, I did it well, so I'm ok with that. Tomorrow is Biology and English! Bleh. Too easy.

Haha, I was walking happily on the streets with Linha (one of my lovely wives) and suddenly, we saw a boy. Fuck he was hot. He was just like Pierre, he had a mohawk (his hair was black), he was wearing converses... and ughhh I can't really describe him. Just imagine Pierre Bouvier and you will see him! lol cough hot cough Then, ok, Linha had the brilliant idea to follow him to see where he was going or whatever he would do. So ok. I swear we walked miles! lol After walking MILES, he went into a street that there are some guys who sell drugs. yucki. So yeah, he wasn't perfect. Pity. Altho, I still think he was hot. We named him Markus! lol

Lemme see... mmm I guess that's it. AAAAHHH! My dad bought me 2 shirts!! Buttful! A Korn one and a Limp Bizkit one! Woot! I butt them, so don't annoy me. >.<''' You can say Limp Bizkit are sellouts, I don't care! Becuz I believe their music. *pokes tongue out*


This song... is for you

Guernica
Brand New


Ever since I was young
Your word is the word that always won
Worry and wake the ones you love
A phone call I'd rather not receive
Please use my body while I sleep
My lungs are fresh and yours to keep
Kept clean and they will let you breathe

Is this the way a toy feels when its batteries run dry?
I am the watch you always wear but you forget to wind

Nobody plans to be half a world away at times like these
So I sat alone and waited out the night
The best part of what has happened was the part I must have missed
So I'm asking you to shine it on and stick around
I'm not writing my goodbyes

I submit no excuse
If this is what I have to do I owe you everyday I wake
If I could I would shrink myself
Sink through your skin to your blood cells
Remove whatever makes you hurt
But I am too weak to be your cure

Is this the way a toy feels when its batteries run dry?
I am the watch you always wear but you forget to wind

Nobody plans to be half a world away at times like these
So I sat alone and waited out the night
The best part of what has happened was the part I must have missed
So I'm asking you to shine it on and stick around
I'm not writing my goodbyes

I'm not letting you check out
You will beat this starting now
You will always be around
I'm there to monitor your breathing
I will watch you while you're sleeping
I will keep you safe and sound

Does anybody remember back when you were very young?
Did you ever think that you would be this blessed?

Nobody plans to be half a world away at times like these
So I sat alone and waited out the night
The best part of what has happened was the part I must have missed
So I'm asking you to shine it on and stick around
I'm not writing my goodbyes

<3 Jo

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Thank you, Toni [27 Jun 2004|10:52pm]
[ mood | relieved ]

"some people can't comprehend the things that are givin to them in life and sometimes those things are friends, and they can just be best friends one moment and stab you in the back the next moment... I went through it as well. some people don't wanna think that their wrong, they always gotta be right. Your not the bad one, cause we all make mistakes and without those mistakes we wouldn't be anything right now! If it wasn't for licking that lamp, do you think I'd know anything about lights?? nope nope! We learn from our mistakes, so nobody is ALWAYS RIGHT! We all cry, even if it is the smallest or biggest or things. You just gotta stick with what YOU think is right and don't let anybody change your mind!"

I think if it wasn't for you, I wouldn't feel at least a little good right now. I think that I shouldn't change my mind. And I won't, I'm straight with my thoughts. Thank you, Toni.
**
You hurt me for too long. I won't swallow it anymore. It was all deposited in my insides, and now that I'm pouring my fucking self on front of this computer, you're gonna read this, and read this straight. I won't bare your bad mood, I won't bare your whining, you know why? Because I'm tired, of feeling guilty for your issues. I'm tired of reading you writing stuff about me, stuff that I'm not fucking able to do with no one. SEPARATE YOU FROM MY FRIENDS?? They were fucking yours too, and you were the one who always liked to be apart from us when you had those crisis. PPl who know me, know that I would never be able to make something to rough like that. Never.
And think about it, Am I the one who needs to grow up, or the girl who cuts her wrists? Who takes medicine? Who thinks of the ways how to suicide?
Ughhh I'm so fucking tired. I won't apologize anymore, I won't try to make you understand anything. CAUSE YOU HAVE TOO MUCH PROUD INSIDE OF YOU! You can't just see that YOU ARE WRONG!

For now on, I won't touch on this story anymore. I won;t torture myself anymore, reading the bulshits you write on your journal. I won't. I'm tired of wasting tears for you.
I'm sorry, if you're gonna use this post to make a revenge like you did on the first one, if it's not too much to ask, don't do it, ok?
**
Toni, I'll be waiting for you here, and don't forget to call me, k? I molish you a bunch baby!

<3 Jo

"I've wasted so much time on a friend
Too young, too proud to understand
So this is the end."

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